Tightness, Part II

Shit, I'm so going to need some more stamps.

Total card count thus far: fifteen. Not anywhere even close to halfway done. My digital address book is eight pages long, in twelve-point font. Granted, not all of those people are getting cards (for one, many of the addresses are outdated, more than likely) but it's still a daunting task to go through it and keep track of everything and everyone who's getting a card. Right now I'm still on the "five a day" plan, but as tomorrow is two weeks until Christmas and most of the people I'm sending cards to live on one end of the country or the other, well...I may have to up that count as the days go on more just to make sure everyone who's getting one is getting one.

I bit the bullet this morning and paid my first quarterly installment of my car insurance through Geico, on the card I usually pay it on, as it's due on Friday and I don't want to get a cancellation notice. It just looks bad, you know? Normally I pay the entirety of the insurance all at once, but as I don't know if I'm ever going to drive the damn car again, why would I do that? The status of the car is still up in the air; I can't get the U Pull It people to call me back, and I can't drive it as it is (obviously), so for the moment it just has to sit there in the parking lot. I do not have the time to otherwise fuck with it until who knows when.

Still nothing from the loans people on my status for forbearance, either; tomorrow is the day the loans come due and there's nothing I can do about that -- they haven't even yet told me they've received, much less are processing, my request for further forbearance, even though I got the confirmation sheet from the fax machine that said the document was successfully sent. That was over a week ago now, and yes, I checked the number -- it was the correct fax number. There's really nothing else I can do; if the systems let me log in tomorrow and I can actually change my payment plan (as it won't let me do so while I'm in forbearance), then I will do that and will have to make a payment, with money we don't have, on loans I shouldn't have to pay back yet in the first place. If it won't let me change my payment plan for the first month, then our savings account will immediately be cut in half -- because it's not like we're flush with cash or anything like that. These last two months have been terrible financially, with so many things happening all at once, bad things, that require money to fix -- money that we don't have or otherwise can't afford to spend.

Last year, the day I faxed the application for forbearance in, I immediately got a response in my email that said they'd received it. However, I'd also faxed it three times by that point and had mailed a paper copy of it to them as well, so I'm guessing they got the paper copy and sent the confirmation of that -- as I don't remember getting confirmations via email from the other faxes. I mean, shit, there's really nothing else I can do right now. There's just not. If I have to pay on it tomorrow, I have to pay on it tomorrow, and re-send the forms again via fax and probably mail to get these people to do their fucking jobs in a timely fashion. The entire situation really, really pisses me off.

Anyway.

The group at work is doing a Secret Santa drawing, as our Christmas potluck is a week from tonight. I'm already done, of course, with getting the gift for my person (who knows I got her in the drawing, so it's not exactly secret), but I have no clue who got my name or what they'll get for me. Again, everything looming over my head since before Thanksgiving is really putting a damper on the Christmas season for me this year. Even more so than usual. There are about ten or so checks I have to write out and mail away once we get paid on Friday, for bills that need to be paid and/or otherwise taken care of. I just got the email that said my Citi Card statement was on its way as well, so that'll be here by the weekend and I'll need to pay it down too. And, of course, there's the matter of Daisy's presents that I still need to get for her either in stores or online, and get it all shipped here if online. We only have the one car now, so it's not like I can sneak off without her to go shopping. Well, I could, but I hate doing that unless it can't be avoided. I don't even like going to Walmart without her unless I'm picking up cigarettes and not much else.

I tend to repeat myself here in this blog almost with every post. I realize this, of course. It's because the things that bother me don't go away. If they do, I stop writing about them, because after that, what's the point?

So now we wait and wait some more.